I don't think I'm ready for this.
How is it ALREADY New Year's eve again? I mean 2015 was a great year, but it's. just this. I'll be 20 in February. Oh my god. Just stop right now. I don't want to be 20.
But besides that, I've always liked the end/beginning of the year because it means fresh starts and new resolutions (even though I probably only did half of my 2015 resolutions). Fresh starts are always good and the whole feeling of a new, sparkling "chance" kind of gets me ready to go another year. :)
2015...wasn't the easiest year. I mean, who am I kidding. Being away at college has never gotten out of the difficult, stressful stage that it was in when I started even though it's less difficult and less stressful. It probably never will.
I think I've learned to accept that being me and being anxious about things literally almost no one else around me is stressed about is okay. There are other people like that and it's not a problem. I've also acknowledged that I probably was depressed last school year and I might go through on and off depression sometimes now.
I fell in love with Kpop even more. Music in general, actually. Music is probably one of my biggest loves and there have been so many times when it's gotten me through the day. I'm not trying to exaggerate, I'm not trying to get people to feel sorry for me. I'm just not very good at "socializing" and it takes a lot of energy and music helps. :D
Despite the hard things like struggling with being homesick, drawing class, and brainstorming for art when you've already brainstormed for three big projects (eungh)-- it was a good year.
|He's weird. He's also my bias.|