How Is 2015 Already Over??
So. Yeah.
I don't think I'm ready for this.
How is it ALREADY New Year's eve again? I mean 2015 was a great year, but it's. just this. I'll be 20 in February. Oh my god. Just stop right now. I don't want to be 20.
But besides that, I've always liked the end/beginning of the year because it means fresh starts and new resolutions (even though I probably only did half of my 2015 resolutions). Fresh starts are always good and the whole feeling of a new, sparkling "chance" kind of gets me ready to go another year. :)
2015...wasn't the easiest year. I mean, who am I kidding. Being away at college has never gotten out of the difficult, stressful stage that it was in when I started even though it's less difficult and less stressful. It probably never will.
I think I've learned to accept that being me and being anxious about things literally almost no one else around me is stressed about is okay. There are other people like that and it's not a problem. I've also acknowledged that I probably was depressed last school year and I might go through on and off depression sometimes now.
I fell in love with Kpop even more. Music in general, actually. Music is probably one of my biggest loves and there have been so many times when it's gotten me through the day. I'm not trying to exaggerate, I'm not trying to get people to feel sorry for me. I'm just not very good at "socializing" and it takes a lot of energy and music helps. :D
Despite the hard things like struggling with being homesick, drawing class, and brainstorming for art when you've already brainstormed for three big projects (eungh)-- it was a good year.
>>> I got to meet Sophia in Chicago. \(^_^)/ It was great. She was awesome. I loved hanging out with her and it's always cool to see how a person actually acts. And we share a lot of love of not taking videos of ourselves in front of people. I'd love to meet all my blogger friends someday :) <33
2. Try something (big or small) that I've never tried before. (Yes! I went paddle boarding.)
4. Exercise more. (Maybe? Does having to walk more for classes count? I'm just gonna count it hehe.)
6. Get straight A's. (YES. *triumphant roar*)
7. Learn how to do more types of art. (Yup. Thank you Drawing 2.)
I don't think I'm ready for this.
How is it ALREADY New Year's eve again? I mean 2015 was a great year, but it's. just this. I'll be 20 in February. Oh my god. Just stop right now. I don't want to be 20.
But besides that, I've always liked the end/beginning of the year because it means fresh starts and new resolutions (even though I probably only did half of my 2015 resolutions). Fresh starts are always good and the whole feeling of a new, sparkling "chance" kind of gets me ready to go another year. :)
2015...wasn't the easiest year. I mean, who am I kidding. Being away at college has never gotten out of the difficult, stressful stage that it was in when I started even though it's less difficult and less stressful. It probably never will.
I think I've learned to accept that being me and being anxious about things literally almost no one else around me is stressed about is okay. There are other people like that and it's not a problem. I've also acknowledged that I probably was depressed last school year and I might go through on and off depression sometimes now.
I fell in love with Kpop even more. Music in general, actually. Music is probably one of my biggest loves and there have been so many times when it's gotten me through the day. I'm not trying to exaggerate, I'm not trying to get people to feel sorry for me. I'm just not very good at "socializing" and it takes a lot of energy and music helps. :D
Despite the hard things like struggling with being homesick, drawing class, and brainstorming for art when you've already brainstormed for three big projects (eungh)-- it was a good year.
>>> I visited my best friend and went paddle boarding with her for the first time! I learned that I am not good at standing on a floating thing on water. Balance is hard. I also learned that I'm great at the paddling part and my best friend sucks at it and HA.
>>> I went to a BTS concert. Yeah. That was a thing. That I still can't believe happened.
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| He's weird. He's also my bias. |
>>> Me and my family finally made a name for our little not-Christmas-not-New-Year's-but-somewhere-in-between thing that we've been doing for a few years now. It's Newmas (pronounced: Noo-mus). Brain child of yours truly. ;)
>>> I dove into the confusing world of Tumblr. (I'm on there every day now. Shhhh.)
>>> I also started doing Kpop youtube videos! I'm not exactly comfortable talking to a camera or as funny as I am with my sister but I think Imma keep doing it. And eventually add other topics of interest.
There were quite a few bigger adventures this year (which were awesome and made me realize you'll never actually do anything big unless you decide to... just do it), but I think I want to go on more small adventures in 2016.
I didn't read a ridiculous amount of books this month, but I'm still happy because I think I got back into a reading groove. :)
The Goddess Test by Aimee Carter ✪✪✪ 3.5 (Good world-building, loved the plot, could've been less cliche)
*I thought I had more! Huh. Welp.
All of these were five stars except for Nimona (four stars). I really loved all of them but if I had to pick the ones that just grabbed my soul and spoke to me, it'd be The Cure for Dreaming and The Coldest Girl in Coldtown. I really recommend reading them. They're gold.
THE BIG MOMENT. Dun dun dun.
Let's see how many of my resolutions I actually accomplished:
1. Take a picture every day for a year. (Nope. I tried. I really did. I just never remembered to take pictures every day.)
3. Finish a writing project. (Not even close.)
5. Grow closer to God. (I think this could use a little more work tbh.)
Sooo... not bad.
I mean, with my forgetfulness, I'm impressed. But hopefully I can do better this next year. :D
What was your 2015 like? Was it great? Did it suck? Was it a mix? *hugs* to you, because you know what? No matter what, you still got one year down.
same...2016 seems so huge and 20 seems so far away...it can't be starting tomorrow. It just can't be. In my mind I should still be a little kid, not some grown-up pretending I understand life. it's weird.
ReplyDeleteI also use music to help with social anxiety/stuff like that. my mom doesn't get it, because she thinks more noise would add to the chaos in my head, but it's kind of like a security blanket of sound. it makes me happy and calms me down.
I'm so glad you got tumblr! I love having you to chat with and such--I've had friends on tumblr, but they weren't kpop people so it wasn't the same. :) and it means I get to spam you with Ravi gifs. XD
woooo straight As!!! that is awesome!!! And it's been so cool seeing your art projects when you post them on Facebook!
I've loved getting to know you over this past year and becoming good friends with you! You definitely helped me smile when I didn't have a lot of friends who were willing to do that. Thank you for that. <3
This is one of the most amazing, lovely comments I've ever gotten :D
DeleteI know, I was always weird as a kid because I didn't really want to grow up like everybody else. Turns out I knew what was up then lol.
A security blanket of sound is a perfect way of describing music. Or on other days I would say they're my personal theme songs. I think it just gives me something to focus on--like one emotion. I dunno. It's my favorite though. :)
SAME. Kpop friends are few and far in between. And you know I luvs you for it XD Besides, we seriously a ton of same groups and your feed is awesome.
YAY. I was so relieved... I was seriously worried about some classes. Aw thanks girl <3 It makes me smile to hear that.
Ditto. Whenever you need smiles you get in touch with me ;) And maybe expect some needing-of-cheering-up by me in return. <3
2015 was definitely a mix for me but I'm pretty glad to see it gone. However this month is the last month of the semester so I won't feel like I can relax or get a true fresh start until February kicks off and all of my grades and finals are put behind me. It's crazy how fast everything has gone! Its very nearly spring already!
ReplyDeleteI'm envious of your straight As and your paddle boarding adventure but thrilled for you all the same! I haven't ventured into Tumblr yet, but have heard it's a dangerously fantastic place.
I have been feeling awful that I haven't done a very good job of keeping up with you and chatting, but hopefully that'll change with the new year! :)
Happy 2016!
Dude, omg. Okay I probably should know this but I don't. I didn't know some places have school until the end of January/beginning of February. Wow. Schools in my state were out for break in mid-December. When do you start school in the fall?
DeleteSorry for getting off track hehe. 2015 was definitely a mix for me too. And I never feel like a fresh start is here until my semester ends either. I wish you all the luck on stressful school things!
Taaanks :3 Tumblr is indeed a magical place filled with too many relatable things and awesome GIF sets.
Hey, I totally understand that life gets busy but I kinda feel bad about not keeping in touch as much as I wanted to too. SO. I will be in touch. Through commenting or something else. *grins* We can't all that awesome collabing go to waste.
Happy 2016 to you too!
We go beginning of September to mid-late June, and have a winter break for two weeks (December-January), but our first semester ends at the end of January so we have "mid-terms" and such.
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Of course not! We should do some guest posts this year too. :)
Huhh, cool. :) School here starts mid-August to mid-Decemberish and then the break of course and then the second semester. I homeschooled before college so I don't have much to go by for high school hehe.
DeleteI would absolutely be up for guest posts! :))
Sounds like a lot of great things happened this year! And yay for goals being completed and for meeting a blogger! That's awesome. ^ ^ My 2015 was pretty good. I grew a lot in my writing and met many of my goals. ^ ^
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Yeah it was an awesome year! Crossing off goals gives me so much joy it's unreal lol. I KNOW. I was so so nervous about meeting Sophia but it was the best.
DeleteI'm so happy for you ^_^ Writing is something I really need to work on this year. My sister wants to write something with me so I need the practice :))