How Is 2015 Already Over??2:23 PM
I don't think I'm ready for this.
How is it ALREADY New Year's eve again? I mean 2015 was a great year, but it's. just this. I'll be 20 in February. Oh my god. Just stop right now. I don't want to be 20.
But besides that, I've always liked the end/beginning of the year because it means fresh starts and new resolutions (even though I probably only did half of my 2015 resolutions). Fresh starts are always good and the whole feeling of a new, sparkling "chance" kind of gets me ready to go another year. :)
2015...wasn't the easiest year. I mean, who am I kidding. Being away at college has never gotten out of the difficult, stressful stage that it was in when I started even though it's less difficult and less stressful. It probably never will.
I think I've learned to accept that being me and being anxious about things literally almost no one else around me is stressed about is okay. There are other people like that and it's not a problem. I've also acknowledged that I probably was depressed last school year and I might go through on and off depression sometimes now.
I fell in love with Kpop even more. Music in general, actually. Music is probably one of my biggest loves and there have been so many times when it's gotten me through the day. I'm not trying to exaggerate, I'm not trying to get people to feel sorry for me. I'm just not very good at "socializing" and it takes a lot of energy and music helps. :D
Despite the hard things like struggling with being homesick, drawing class, and brainstorming for art when you've already brainstormed for three big projects (eungh)-- it was a good year.
>>> I visited my best friend and went paddle boarding with her for the first time! I learned that I am not good at standing on a floating thing on water. Balance is hard. I also learned that I'm great at the paddling part and my best friend sucks at it and HA.
>>> I went to a BTS concert. Yeah. That was a thing. That I still can't believe happened.
|He's weird. He's also my bias.|
>>> Me and my family finally made a name for our little not-Christmas-not-New-Year's-but-somewhere-in-between thing that we've been doing for a few years now. It's Newmas (pronounced: Noo-mus). Brain child of yours truly. ;)
>>> I dove into the confusing world of Tumblr. (I'm on there every day now. Shhhh.)
>>> I also started doing Kpop youtube videos! I'm not exactly comfortable talking to a camera or as funny as I am with my sister but I think Imma keep doing it. And eventually add other topics of interest.
There were quite a few bigger adventures this year (which were awesome and made me realize you'll never actually do anything big unless you decide to... just do it), but I think I want to go on more small adventures in 2016.
I didn't read a ridiculous amount of books this month, but I'm still happy because I think I got back into a reading groove. :)
We'll Always Have Summer by Jenny Han ✪✪✪ (Finally finished this sucker. Disappointed with it tbh)
The Truth-Teller's Tale by Sharon Shinn ✪✪✪ (Better than I expected. Interesting idea!)
Famous in Love by Rebecca Serle ✪✪ (Eh. Not a fan of the love triangle)
The Goddess Test by Aimee Carter ✪✪✪ 3.5 (Good world-building, loved the plot, could've been less cliche)
United We Spy by Ally Carter ✪✪✪✪✪ (PRAISE. HALLELUJAH. Yes. This is exactly the finale I wanted)
*I thought I had more! Huh. Welp.
All of these were five stars except for Nimona (four stars). I really loved all of them but if I had to pick the ones that just grabbed my soul and spoke to me, it'd be The Cure for Dreaming and The Coldest Girl in Coldtown. I really recommend reading them. They're gold.
THE BIG MOMENT. Dun dun dun.
Let's see how many of my resolutions I actually accomplished:
1. Take a picture every day for a year. (Nope. I tried. I really did. I just never remembered to take pictures every day.)
3. Finish a writing project. (Not even close.)
5. Grow closer to God. (I think this could use a little more work tbh.)
Sooo... not bad.
I mean, with my forgetfulness, I'm impressed. But hopefully I can do better this next year. :D
What was your 2015 like? Was it great? Did it suck? Was it a mix? *hugs* to you, because you know what? No matter what, you still got one year down.